For such a long time i wanted to write about grounding… As a child, i don’t even think i had any grounding at all. Looking back it feels like i had this vague memory of where i came from, not really understanding why i was on earth. Just really sensitive for what is going on here, people where so cruel. And i was carrying all of this, couldn’t really do much about it.
In my late twenties i started to do a course, about natural health. It was about herbs, reflexology, energywork, etc. And grounding was mentioned often, i had now idea what it even meant. So this sentence came up often… YOU MUST GET GROUNDED! And boy oh boy did this have an imput on my life, as i really had no clue how to do that.
First there was this fear, that i would loose my connection with where i came from. And probably lots of resistance as well, as i would rather go back to where i came from. And as much as i loved the earth as a planet, i couldn’t feel that bonding, my feet on the earth, the opening of my lower chakra’s to feel my energy go down deep into the earth.
I started doing all kind of things, like yoga, tai chi, gaialogy, shamanism and building the shamanic drums. And they have been amazing teachers! The process of building, and doing all the steps myself, is a really earthly and physical process. The lessons from the materials, wood and skins, tought me so much.
Then 1,5 year ago, i joined an online weekend soul retrieval. A process that took all this time to show me so much information. In this retrieval i could see my incarnation process. Where i got stuck into a kind of loop, where i had to put in storage the knowledge/beauty from where i came from. But in doing so, i wasn’t able to see the knowledge/beauty/treasures of the earth. So it feels that for such a long i have been living in between this worlds, not able to connect to any of those worlds. This shamanic teacher, Andrew Hryniewicz, also offered a two weekly meditation space, which really works, as you start to see the red line.
In this process, i have meditated so much, and found people like Dr Joe Dispenza, and Sarita at Solhenge. Thanks to the lockdown, the shamanic teacher of my shamanic teachers, Christopher moonbear, did an online event for many weeks. And now it all seems to go really fast…The meditations, dr Joe’s bodypart meditation, really helped me to connect with my body. Sarita’s meditations, wow they helped me to go up so much. And each time (as it is about grounding) i went higher up, i felt like connectiong deeper and deeper to the earth. I started to feel grounded in both worlds again. Just couldn’t believe after all these years of searching for ways to get grounded, going up and connecting to consicousness, the void, matter womb, was finally doing the trick.
And this morning, after feeling a bit of a crisis for a few days, i just felt the lower chakra”s open up completely, breathing deep into the earth, seeing her beautiful diamond core and the energy pouring into me. It went up to my heart, feeding it with so much love, and it opened up to the light above me as well. Because after being connected to these two world again, there was still my heart in between, and there was so much sadness, and it felt empty. I needed a few days to let this all out, it was just the realisation of having lived on this planet for so long, in between these worlds. It felt like a rebirth, the birth of a shamanic heart. But also the hollow bone, such connection between the worlds. And already such inspiration for the drummaking again.
And i really just wanted to write this all down, as i feel there will be so many people struggling with this grounding and incarnation process, and hope it can help them….
With so much gratitude for all the teachers and beautiful people that came on my path…
Here some links for some of the meditations i have done, i hope they will inspire you as well.